joining tumblr. haha bye.

in my life; the beatles

this song<3
makes me think. tomorrow i might see him. on & off for the past five years. yup. quite a long time. and nothing's really ever come out of it. he texts me every holiday to wish me a happy or a merry _____. except valentines day. am i just fooling myself ?






oh hey, you gaytard. you're a dumbass. -_- i can't believe you'd post a video like that. you're so lame.

what the heck

i don't know how to respond to things like this ..

"i saw new moon by myself surrounded by screaming girls"

if it was a close friend [oh fyi, this is a guy] i'd just laugh & call him a homo. but this is someone .. i haven't seen in like 4 years, randomly telling me about his life. how the heck do you respond to that ? i suppose with just awkward laughter. but he probably doesn't realize it's awkward because it's online. fail.

moving on, re-reading old posts i've written, i'm super negative. but i feel like it's okay because it's a blog. i mean where else am i supposed to vent ? if i don't vent here, i vent [oh goodness. awkward guy "i should've went to senior prom in hs" uhhhh okay ? -_-] where else am i supposed to vent ? i don't want to pile everything onto my best friend. so venting online to nobody seems like quite the alternative.

i miss my best friend. she leaves tomorrow. it's gay shit. we don't even get to hang out today. ugh. so much crap has happened during her vacay. so lame. vacations shouldn't be like that. & i haven't exactly been supportive. sorry. she knows why though. and she knows that i'll always love her. it's just, i can't deal with it sometimes.

watching youtube acoustic videos. i hate it when the girl [it's always a girl] recording the video sings along .. really loudly.. into the camera .. -_- you're closer to the mic on the camera then the artist. please do not sing so loudly .. i can't hear the artist you're recording. & i don't care if the artists says sing along. haha. blarg.

in vegas

i've been here since saturday morning. so a total of two days spent in this cancer filled sin oozing city.

i do enjoy the lights. if i was alone, or with friends, i feel like i would actually enjoy the damn place. but alas i am not. i am with my parents. i have to go to a cafe downstairs to get free internet cause the stupid hotel room charges $12 a day to use it from the room. why would i use it from the room when it's free down in the lobby ? stupid. there are more asians in this city within this weekend than i've ever seen in my entire life. it's really annoying because they're asian fobs. you know the kind that think they are the greatest people alive so they get the right of way for everything ? yeah. those bitches. with every intake of breath i can feel the cancer slowly growing inside of me. i have a constant headache from all of this nonsense smoke, i can't buy anything and i spent $15 to go see some tigers hyped up on god knows what [there were four of them.. walking in tight circles. wtf.] and a few dolphins that just swam around in circles. cool. to top it off, that was my $15 too. gay shit.

i'm in a really bad mood. mother blaming shit on me again. more than 3/4 of the time, it's not my fault. and 100% of the time, it's definitely not my problem. currently listening to pandora radio: underoath. on the loudest setting for both the website and my macbook. with headphones. hahaha i love all the O_O looks i get from surrounding people. sorry i suppose. i just don't want to hear about your problems. i've got enough of my own.

well today

was a waste of life.

1. ceramics "final" which i could've probably skipped and still gotten an a

2. history final which i knew i was going to fail the class anyway so i had no idea what the point of going in was.

3. macbook is being a little bitch and doing whatever the fuck it wants, as usual with all my electronics

4. asked mother to bring my birth certificate so i could get my id today since it takes forever to get it processed, she decided it makes more sense to leave it at home and go pick it up after i get out of school and go to the west covina dmv even though there's a dmv less than five minutes away from csuf. genius planning.

5. and to top it all off ? i got blamed for "planning things too late" regarding the birth certificate. what the fuck.

now i'm listening to underoath cause it was the first scream-o music that came into my head.

which is retarded to listen to right now cause since when was christian scream-o a good thing to listen to when you're in a bad mood ?

haha the fucking lightbulb just burned out.