joining tumblr. haha bye.

in my life; the beatles

this song<3
makes me think. tomorrow i might see him. on & off for the past five years. yup. quite a long time. and nothing's really ever come out of it. he texts me every holiday to wish me a happy or a merry _____. except valentines day. am i just fooling myself ?






oh hey, you gaytard. you're a dumbass. -_- i can't believe you'd post a video like that. you're so lame.

what the heck

i don't know how to respond to things like this ..

"i saw new moon by myself surrounded by screaming girls"

if it was a close friend [oh fyi, this is a guy] i'd just laugh & call him a homo. but this is someone .. i haven't seen in like 4 years, randomly telling me about his life. how the heck do you respond to that ? i suppose with just awkward laughter. but he probably doesn't realize it's awkward because it's online. fail.

moving on, re-reading old posts i've written, i'm super negative. but i feel like it's okay because it's a blog. i mean where else am i supposed to vent ? if i don't vent here, i vent [oh goodness. awkward guy "i should've went to senior prom in hs" uhhhh okay ? -_-] where else am i supposed to vent ? i don't want to pile everything onto my best friend. so venting online to nobody seems like quite the alternative.

i miss my best friend. she leaves tomorrow. it's gay shit. we don't even get to hang out today. ugh. so much crap has happened during her vacay. so lame. vacations shouldn't be like that. & i haven't exactly been supportive. sorry. she knows why though. and she knows that i'll always love her. it's just, i can't deal with it sometimes.

watching youtube acoustic videos. i hate it when the girl [it's always a girl] recording the video sings along .. really loudly.. into the camera .. -_- you're closer to the mic on the camera then the artist. please do not sing so loudly .. i can't hear the artist you're recording. & i don't care if the artists says sing along. haha. blarg.